Last Saturday (Feb. 17) was Maacah’s birthday party. She had a blast! We had it up at the school gym and the children rode their bikes. I thought it would be fun for them to ride, since you can’t ride 
them outside in February. There was also face panting and those punching balloons. She said that it was the best part she’s ever had and wants a bike party every year. I’m not so sure she’ll want one when she turns 30, but that’s for her to decide later. Her actual birthday, Feb. 19, was a bit quieter, but still 
a good one.
She has quite the interesting personality. She’s enough like Adam’s older brother and my older sister to make me a bit nervous. Okay, a lot nervous! I honestly don’t see any of my self in her, but she’s young yet. I must admit something that is very painful for me: I don’t feel very “attached” to her. Not like my other children. You know how you can just “click” with some people, while you don’t with others. I’m afraid that I don’t click with her and that bothers me to no end! With out going into great detail, my mother and sister’s relationship was like that. They didn’t “click” while my mother and I did. This has always been a sore point with my sister and I fear that happening to Maacah and I. But I’m not sure there is anything I can do about it.
She’s outgoing, impulsive and very determined. Sshe carries the stubborness of the Dewings with pride! She can be very head strong, yet I’ve seen a tenderness within her that is a joy to see. She is not afraid of anyone (in the day and age, that makes me a very watchful, and sometimes nervous, mother!) and doesn’t show much fear in trying new things. We live in the northern part of Wisconsin and there are many lake around our town. Summer is not a long season here and the water in the lakes doesn’t get warm until late June, early July. We went out last June to one of the lakes and while it was way to cold for me, she jumped in head first and didn’t come out for the next hour! That is how she lives her life: with gusto and jumping before she looks.
Heavenly Father, Watch over this beautiful child you have given us. She has such a passion for life! I desire nothing more than to see that passion turned towards you. Help me as her mother to teach her the things that will be needed in her life. Please guide our relationship as she gets older. I know there are times I‘m not the mother that she needs and I don’t respond correctly. Despite the ackwardness that is present between us at times, help me to always show Your love for her. Give her father and I a vision for what you want her life to be. I love this little girl so much! Thank you for blessing us with her life. In Jesus holy name, Amen
Happy birthday sweet heart!