I’m not doing so great today. I can’t seem to stop crying, or at the very least, stop wanting to cry. I’m not in any pain and the baby is fine. I just feel myself falling into the pit where I’ve been before and I’m terrified. I know from experience that no amount of company, phone calls or talking will keep from it. Only one Thing will.
I know the Lord is with me and will never leave me alone. This I believe with all my soul. And this is the only thing I have to hold on to. I feel like today, that if I hold any tighter, I’m going to choke Him. So I’m doing the only thing that I can do. I’m holding on tight and letting the water flow.
I can’t stop it anyway.