Someday dreams

We all have them. Some of our dreams are big, while others are not so big. Some are put into boxes labeled “never to be”, some are labeled “maybe someday”, some are labeled “work in progress”, while other’s are labeled “already have it”. I’m sure just reading that sentence, several of your dreams have come to mind. 

As I was reading this post, it resounded quite loud within me, for I am struggling with the placement of my dreams. I don’t want to sound ungrateful for what I have and for what we have accomplished. But there is a part of me that yearns for a different path, so to speak. .

I will be the first to admit that I am living some of my long held dreams right now.

* I have a large family. Being a mother to many children has always been a dream of mine. Since I was a little girl, I have wanted a large family. I am so grateful to God that He has blessed me with the children I have!!

* For whatever reason, I have always known a few things about my husband. I’m talking way, way back in my childhood I knew these things. My husband would be taller than me  (), he would have dark eyes, () and he would either be a preacher or a farmer. ( I got the preacher). True story.

* Before we were engaged, Adam and I have talked about owning our own business. For 3 1/2 years, the Lord has seen fit to bless us with the ability to have just that. Our catering business is doing very well, and keeping us quite busy.

These are just a few of the dreams of mine which have come true. So it’s not like I’m sitting here without anything to be grateful for. On the contrary! It is a fine line between stating that there are more dreams of mine I would like to accomplish and being unappreciative of the dreams that I’m living right now.

I love creating! That’s no secret, I’m sure. I have so many ideas rolling around in my head, that sometimes it feels like it’s too much to carry around! It’s a bit of a scary thing to lay open your secret dreams for everyone to see. And perhaps scoff at. But amidst that fear can lay the promise of chance. Perhaps with the exposure of those hidden dreams, those seemingly unreachable hope, steps can be taken towards them.

I want to be able to explore different creative avenues. I want to be able to sell the items that I make, whether on-line or in person, to help fund what I love to do! I want to make custom quilts for others, to give them a keepsake that lasts a life time. I want to be able to work with fabric designers, to create something beautiful and unique to show case their fabric. I have even toyed with the idea of submitting some drawings of my own, with the hopes of designing my own fabric line. I want to put so many of the patterns I have in my head to paper, with the intent to publishing those patterns. I would love to be published! First in magazines and various media, working my way up to a book someday. 

Just getting that all down makes my feel so vulnerable. So open. It is almost laughable, I suppose, to have those lofty dreams. I guess that’s what makes them dreams, isn’t it? If they were just merely ideas they wouldn’t hold such a place within us.

Any dream worth dreaming is worth working for. That I know and believe. It takes work to get where you want to be. However, there is also a time for all things. “To everything, there is a season…”, right? While these dreams are still living and are not being forgotten, this isn’t the season for them. Not in their entirety, anyway. It hurts a little each time I have to tuck them away for another day. But tuck away I must, for there are other things going on around me that need my attention and focus. The season I am in right now is about my family, my children, not about my ambitions. Along side these daily life things, I work a little bit towards my dreams. Stitch by stitch, day be day. I am not in the place where I can jump right in, but I’m working on my toes getting wet!

Dreams take work, and that work takes time. I am willing to put in that time to work towards those dreams. Those someday dreams.